I hate it when I feel the way I do today. There's no trigger reason for this feeling. Nothing happened in particular that left me wanting to curl up on my bed and shut down for the day. But that's how I feel. I feel anxious and jittery. I feel overwhelmed. I feel angry (at no one and nothing in particular). Mostly I just feel like crying. And I don't know why. I feel like I have so many good things going on in my life that there's actually no reason whatsoever to feel unhappy or blah, yet I do, and I can't explain or understand it. It's an incredibly frustrating emotion.
Just had to get it out there. And I feel stupid doing it because there's nothing identifiable that's causing this. But I think sometimes I gloss over the blah days or try to hide them with humor or something. But the reality is, today I feel blue. I guess it's okay to feel that way sometimes. Even if we don't know why. I hope it goes away quickly though because an ornery mom makes for an ornery house and then I'd have to pile feelings of guilt on top of the feelings of blah and I don't think I could handle that.
Please tell me I'm not the only one who goes through random, weird mood swings like this?
Ick! I despise days like that. Keep your chin up cause certainly tomorrow will be better right. That's what I like to tell myself then I drown all my sorrows in a giant vat of ice cream or Dr. Pepper. DON'T DO THAT. It's totally not worth it. I am so sorry you are feeling like this today I have no idea why some days are gloomier than others. I have this theory though, I am a major self-doubter/self loather. Even when the days are just hopping along all of a sudden out of the blue, there doesn't even have to be a reason or event for it, I start having all these feelings of not being good enough. Ugg. It is awful. You are an amazing lady and I am sure things will be better after a good nights rest.{{{{Huggs}}}}
ReplyDeleteOh Ang, you certainly aren't alone. I think it is a lady thing. I hope tomorrow is happier! Are you doing beach therapy with the fam tomorrow? I know that would make me feel better. Let yourself curl up and let Willy take care of things tonight. Love you!
ReplyDelete(((hugs))) to you! We try as women to accomplish it all, be all, and not give up - it's okay to just "be," I always believe that when we shut down, that is our internal self saying "time to chillax, recharge and just "be!" Hugs to you and have a great rest of your weekend.
ReplyDeleteI ASSURE you, you are NOT alone! Although in those moments it feels like you are. If there is a next time, just reach out and text me, I'll remind you that you are not alone.
ReplyDeleteYou are not the only one. We all have those days and we just have to take a moment and then end the pity party. Much easier said than done though. I hope you're doing much, much better today! :)
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